On a down note, I'm sick of living out of suit case. There is something to be said about staying put, and having your same friends. The stability of life, and seeing the same people at the gym, grocery store, neighbors. The since of community, the yearning to take an acting class. To be back in the city that never sleeps, and to have people over for American Idol! To go on many auditions, and to better yourself as an artist. To actually be able to try not to be single anymore, and try to make a life with someone special. All these things, you CANT really do on tour.
I'm trying to learn to focus, I have an amazing job. In this time when people are out of work. I'm saving so much money, and better yet, I'm doing the show of my dreams. I only have 5 more months left. We are also leaving the states and going to Asia! That is going to be an awesome experience in itself! I can't wait, and I have excitement bubbling in my stomach for the trip to Asia!
It has been hard lately for me to be a tourist, sometimes, I just wanna stay in my room, and do my show at night! Sometimes I don't even wanna go out in this town, that I should be taking advantage of. After a year, of seeing new places, and meeting new people. I just don't wanna anymore. I don't wanna wonder the city to find CVS, a Hair Cut, and the Gym! I don't wanna be lost on the streets. I don't wanna find a good restaurant!!! I JUST DON'T WANNA!!!!
What I'm learning from writing this, is again, to live life day by day! And try to live it to the fullest. Even when your dreams come true. Sometimes, you don't know what you got until it's gone. All the cliche's that I have heard and know. I have just relearned, and have more clarity.
This tour journey, is one that I wouldn't give up for the world. I do look forward to the future, and will try real hard to enjoy the moment! Six months after I leave this tour, I will miss tour life. I know, cause that is how life is.
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